We moved! We moved to Pownal, which is about 20 mins away from Windham, 8 minutes from Gray. Ive been unpacking and unpacking....it never ends. Trying to get organized, finding places for stuff I didnt know existed. Trying to get our house on the market, still trying to make trips once a week to get stuff from Windham house, that we couldnt fit into the truck. But, David and I feel less stressed for sure. Its easy to keep up with this house. Its smaller, but works just fine. We dont have to worry about the basement flooding EVER. The only cons to the house we are in now, is the bathroom is alot smaller than im used to (no storage), and people go way too fast on our road (35mph zone) people do about 50. So we cant let the dogs out to run, as they will most definitely get hurt. We were going to build a fenced in area for them to run....but then my purse was stolen and my car broke ($300) so we ran out of money.
Vacation:
Went super good. we spent alot of time together as a family! It was so nice not worrying about what time I had to be to work. It just makes me want to be a stay at home mom even more. We went to boston-the aquarium, wolfes neck state park, range pond, oob, it was fun!!! Until, my purse was stolen. Holy rush of emotions. It really made me mad. Like, that someone had the nerve to touch my purse, my personal belongings, that were right next to my daughters car seat. I hate feeling violated. We ran around, got a new bank account (because the ppl used my debit card) and i got a new license. We still have to file the police report, but the cops are pretty sure they can tag the asses that have been on a stealing spree. I really hope they get them.
Ive been planning Addison's 1st Birthday. Its so weird that she is turning ONE! We have had her with us for a year (well actually 1 year 9 months if you must). We are doing a Hungry catepillar theme! Im so excited, feeling so crafty. I finally get to throw a party for my daughter. I dont wanna wreck the surprises im doing, but it all ties in the the VHC theme.
We had Addie's photos done friday by a really cool Mama named Noelle. She is amazing, and definitely made me want to pursue photography even more. I want to take classes and learn all about it. I want to become a L&D nurse also. I guess photography is something more realistic right now, as David is going to college, and i feel as though It would be way too stressful to have 2 in school, and a baby, and 2 actually 3 jobs. YIKES. so photography it is.
P90X...food....and weight loss....
I read this lady's blog today, and her pictures were very inspiring!!!
http://fortheloveofskinny.wordpress.com/
This is a struggle for me. Weight in general sucks. Let me give you a very good idea of whats been going on.
I was 160lbs when i met David in 2005. I quickly gained weight, and by 2009 i was 200lbs. Well, most of you know when i got pregnant I dropped over 30 lbs and went back to 170....and full term 40 weeks pregnant i was 195lbs. I did amazing for the first 4 months, keeping the weight off, but I quickly started in with frozen dinners, anything that was quick to make, and I sat around all winter besides working 6 hours a night. So, yeah...now im back up to 200lbs. I feel so self conscious and annoyed. Im pissed at myself for not making more of an effort. I did try weight watchers when Addie was around 5 months old. I did great, lost a few lbs, learned how to plan meals, and portion things right. But even though I did the plan for breastfeeding moms, It still messed with milk production. From then on I have struggled with keeping up with Addies demand for milk. So I basically said, I dont care how fat I get, I am going to do the best I can to make it to a year breastfeeding. I have 1 more month to go!!!! But, back to weight loss. I have the p90x program. Im nervous about starting it. I just want to see results asap I guess. Im impatient. I want to be a little skinny chick. I never realized before how thin i was. I always thought i was chunky. NOPE! i would give anything to get that body back. 2005 was the 1 summer i wore a bikini, and I was sooooo paranoid that it looked terrible. I have a feeling it didnt. I want that body back. I am so determined to feel sexy again, i need to feel sexy again. I want to fit into all my size 11/12 pants. as of now, im a 16. I can do this. I need to do this. I need to kick my ass. I feel like a blob right now, especially when my husband is super skinny, and me next to him, just looks unporportioned. I have a lot of muscle, And i know that weighs more than fat, but this body at the moment looks more fat than muscle. So I will start P90X tomorrow. And begin eating like weight watchers again. Its the only way I actually care what i eat. It worked. And, I think I will do updated pictures of my loss too. It might help to see the pics, see the progress. Im excited, to finally pursue this, as ive been procrastinating, or way too busy to find time for me.
So, This is me in 2005 at 160 lbs:
hahahahahaha, i was totally talking to David below :-)
this is me in 2009 at the beginning of my pregnancy:
This was me after a 30lb weight drop from severe morning sickness:
(keep in mind i was 4 months prego)
This was me the night before i had Addison:
this was me right after i had addie. before gravity hit all my extra skin...
Note above ^ see how far the baby carrier strap comes to the middle of my hip??
Ok, see below: This is me now, at 200lbs, note the strap location. i have gained weight...too much. UGH.
Thanks for reading, it makes me feel supported!
